For Your Eyes Only

For your eyes only
Can see me through the night
For your eyes only
I never need to hide
You can see so much in me
So much in me that's new
I never felt until I looked at you
For your eyes only, only for you
You see what no one else can see
And no one breaking free
For your eyes only, only for you

But love, I know you needed me
The fantasy you freed in my
Only for you, only for you
For your eyes only
The nights are never cold
You really know me
That's all need to know
Maybe I'm an open book
Because I know you're mine
But you won't need to read
Between the lines

For your eyes only, only for you
You see what no one else can see
No one breaking free
For your eyes only, only for you
The passions that collide in me
Wild abandon side of me
Only for you, for your eyes only

Whenever I fee like dancing...

I believe that I am not a born dancer.. But all my life, I have always fancied dancing.. Although I haven't gotten the full training when I was a kid, I was able to take short courses about ballet & jazz.

When I was still a church kid, I belong to the dance ministry. I just marvel at the thought of expressing one's self when I move my body.


I wanted to try ballroom dancing.. i am a sucker for stilettos and those costumes! :) Oh well, it is starting to become a frustration.. I wish I could dance again..

The Colour of My Love

I'll paint my mood in shades of blue
Paint my soul to be with you
I'll sketch your lips in shaded tones
Draw your mouth to my own

I'll draw your arms around my waist
Then all doubt I shall erase
I'll paint the rain that softly lands on your wind-blown hair

I'll trace a hand to wipe out your tears
A look to calm your fears
A silhouette of dark and light
While we hold each other oh so tight

I'll paint a sun to warm your heart
Swearing that well never part
That's the colour of my love

I'll paint the truth
Show how I feel
Try to make you completely real
I'll use a brush so light and fine
To draw you close and make you mine

I'll paint a sun to warm your heart
Swearing that well never part
That's the colour of my love

I'll draw the years all passing by
So much to learn so much to try

And with this ring our lives will start
Swearing that well never part
I offer what you cannot buy
Devoted love until we die

my humble motorola a1200

I have this fondness for PDA phones. It is what I really would like to have for Christmas.. Gosh I wish that I will be able to save up that much for one. When huhun and I went to SM Mall of Asia last weekend, I have seen this one and the thought of having an XDA Mini or an O2. I want this one:

Daisy

In paper, "Daisy" sounds like an Asian film fan's dream come true, directed by "Infernal Affairs" co-helmer Andrew Lau and starring everybody's favourite sassy girl, popular Korean actress Jeon Ji Hyun. Unfortunately, despite the talent involved, and the fact that the crew flew halfway around the world to shoot in Amsterdam , the film turns out to be a bit of a disappointment, being a clichéd romantic drama which wallows in misery and self importance.

The plot follows Hye Young (Jeon Ji Hyun), a rather naïve Korean girl who lives in Amsterdam , spending her life working in her grandfather's antique shop and doing portraits for tourists. One day, she begins receiving flowers at exactly the same time from a secret admirer, who she believes to be a mystery man from her past who once built her a nice little bridge. One day she meets Jeong Woo (Lee Seong Jae, also in "Holiday" and "Public Enemy"), who unbeknownst to her is actually an Interpol agent tracking Asian criminals in the Netherlands .

With Hye Young assuming that Jeong Woo is responsible for the flowers, the two fall very slowly into a chaste romantic relationship. However, it turns out that the man sending the flowers is actually Park Yi (Jung Woo Sung, from "Sad Movie" and "Musa"), an assassin working for a Chinese crime syndicate. Inevitably, the love triangle turns tragic and the two men end up facing off while poor Hye Young tries to work out which of the two is the love of her life.

Although "Daisy" is ostensibly a love story, it has the feel of a funeral, with a slow, sombre pace and a plot which piles on the misery. Half of the film's running time is taken up with scenes of the characters staring longingly out of windows into the rain, with the silence broken only by bouts of self pitying narration. Director Lau seems to be under the impression that the film is a weighty Shakespearean tragedy, rather than yet another gloomy hitman love story. As such, the proceedings have a rather pretentious air, despite the fact that the plot is inherently predictable and based largely around glaring clichés borrowed liberally from the likes of "Fulltime Killer" and John Woo's classic "The Killer".

Almost every aspect of the film is riddled with angst, with the three lead characters suffering as if the weight of the world was on their shoulders, and steadfastly refusing to do anything to pursue their romantic inclinations. Park Yi in particular, as the kind of overly emotional, socially retarded assassin so beloved of modern cinema, is faintly ludicrous, from his blatant incompetence on the job to his hilarious attempts to discuss impressionist painting with Hye Young or his penchant for flower growing. This languid passivity does make the film's central romance somewhat hard to swallow, and Lau's attempts to evoke the feeling that it is fate which brings the characters together comes across more as shoddy coincidence.

Lost In Space

Sometimes I get tired of this me first attitude
You are the one thing that keeps me smiling
Thats why Im always wishing hard for you

cause your life shines so bright
I dont feel no solitude
You are my first star at night
Id be lost in space without you

And Ill never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

Feels just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why cant it always be so good

But its alright, I know youre out there
Doing what youve gotta do
You are my soul satellite
Id be lost in space without you

And Ill never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And Ill never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And Ill never lose my faith in you
And Ill never lose my faith in you

Random Ramblings

It may seemed that I am getting selfish... I am feeling so -- I'd be damned but logically speaking the career that I have always wanted slipped through my fingers...

To make it correct, I did let it slip away.. Someone keeps on pushing me up.. and most of the times, he gives me the strength to move on...

Actually, he keeps me safe in this crazy world. I am grateful that he is my better half, yet.. I don't know how I could let him know that, moreover believe it..

He always assures me that we deserve each other.. and with the time that we have spent together, I can say that those are the happiest moments that I can keep until my last breathe..

The last time I fall in love with Eric Bennet is a song I heard over the radio on our way home yesterday... I have read the lyrics on his blog but haven't heard it yet...

sigh? I wonder how can make him proud of me.. really proud of me. i keep on ranting about the changes I want to happen and he does not know that with every kiss and smile that he offers makes my heart light from all the worries that I have...

And with me sometimes being happy I tend to overlook that there are concerns of his -- it makes me sad that when I try to take care of him, I always lack on e aspect.. I am not blaming myself though, but I marvel how fate keeps us growing and going even if most of the time it causes us pain.
And he doesn't know that I am proud of him... Like what he once said, do not fret my dear.. eventually you will get there.. Give yourself some space.. It is your first time to be the head of your org.. and the skill of leading is still being developed... It was not your fault that you were sick... :) sheesh... I'll kill those people if you will get even more sick... :) but I know how it feels... it is just a challenge.. at least it is good that something stirred up... that means you value the position that was given to you..

And I admire you for the courage .. no matter how I make pigil, I know that there will come a time that you will be the man you ought to be... I don't want to take part to any of your glory.. I'll just be there gazing at you.. knowing and believing that i was just glad to be by your side... and to have you as you have me..

September Rains...

hmm.. random ramblings... I spent yesterday going to Tagaytay with Hunny and his cousins.. Tina came for vacation from Singapore.. and the usual thing that they do is gala... Although it was tiresome because it is balikan.. it is good to get out of the city for a change...

it took us about 4-6 Collete stores to find a cassava cake for Chi which eventually settled down after she ate her waffle @ Pancake house.. :)

it feels good relaxin' and chillin' out even if my leave was not approved. i guess it leaves me with no choice but to go to IBM tomorrow after my shift...

Safe In A Crazy World

I try to smile my tears away,
I try to keep my cool.
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter,
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me.

It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain to the theater of my dreams
I stumble and i crumble and I'm sinking to my knees for you
You cradle me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's on a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again

'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again

Moving Forward

Considering the fact that I was late for half-day at work, I have again realized the pains of working at day shift.. I so hate the sun (although I am thankful that it chose to shine -- because it will be more difficult to travel when it is raining)... scorching hot?

I was even amazed because my boss allowed me to go on half day.. Not knowing that I have a demo process for another non-agent position.

I thought that working at day shift (even if I tried ignoring the 20% night differential -- which just goes to my tax) will be less painful for me... was I ever wrong.. I am still in the adjusting -- and as usual... coping up with the everyday morning rambles.

I am tired of being an agent.. which goes to the resolution that I need to find another job that will challenge me and so I can make use of the skills that were long buried for almost two years now..

I am totally sedated -- I go to work just for the sole purpose of earning.. That is just it.. No other reasons ... I am not helpless. I just actually would want to have something that I can really call "career" -- something that is really worth having.. something that is to be proud of ...

my baby is still sick.. and I am trying my best to take care of him. We "almost" went to Tagaytay with the rest of his cousins last Saturday but it was postponed... settled for eating pizza @ Libis then Starbucks. Although there was dinner last night, I went home instead after celebrating Rica's birthday...

It was also my nephew's birthday.. just turned 3.. so adorable and at an early age, one can sense the quick-witted yet meek attitude from him...

i miss hunny...