Monday, November 13, 2006

The Alchemist

^.~ It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.
Never stop dreaming.^.~
^.~ Not everyone can see his dreams come true in the same way.
Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own. ^.~
^.~ The world's greatest lie: At a certain point in out lives we lose control of what's happening to us and our lives become controlled by fate.
When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.^.~
^.~ Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything because it's all written there.
If you can concentrate on the present, you'll be a happy man…the secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better…Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity.^.~
^.~ Everything has been written by the same hand.
All things are one.^.~
^.~ Courage is the quality most essential to understanding the language of the world.
Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits him.^.~
^.~ Wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.
You've got to find the treasure, so that everything you have learned along the way can make sense.^.~
^.~ There is only one way to learn. It's through action.
Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World and it will one day return there.^.~
^.~ This natural world is only an image and a copy of paradise.
The existence of this world is simply a guarantee that there exists a world that is perfect.^.~
^.~ No heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity.
Most people see the world as a threatening place, and because they do, the world turns out indeed to be a threatening place.^.~
^.~ When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed.
No one fails to suffer the consequences of everything under the sun.^.~
^.~ There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.
When we love, we always strive to become better than we are.^.~
^.~ When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.
Without love, dreams would have no meaning.^.~
^.~ Love is the pure language of the world...A language without words…the one true language of the universe. It requires no explanation, just as the universe needs none as it travels through endless time.
Love is the force that transforms and improves the soul of the world.^.~
^.~ The boy reached through to the Soul of the World and saw that it was a part of the Soul of God. And he saw that the Soul of God was his own soul. And that he, a boy, could perform miracles.
No matter what he does, every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world. And normally he doesn't know it.^.~
^.~ A philosophy of life: I'm an adventurer, looking for treasure.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Totally confused

I am a clingy person and I know that by heart.

And even if I easily get hurt, I try to put up a face and let others know how strong I can be..

My soft spot is my family. I don't know if there was even a time that I did make deadma when they need something.. No matter how I try, to just at least get a grip of my finances, I could not.

Maybe because I know for a fact that I am the only person who has a legit work right now. And my father was not stingy when he was still earning green money.

I don't want you to think that they are actually taking advantage, moreover they are hoarding my salary. I just can't bear seeing my mom desperately seeking for money to pay for the bills, bring food at the table.. and give my siblings allowances.

I am not the shopaholic type of person who buys anything and everything I want either. From what I can clearly recall, it has been months since I bought myself a pair of shoes... and no I am not having self pity.

Like any others girl in my age, I have alot of dreams -- which I could have this or that... But I do not tolerate the materialism attitude so I was able to refrain myself.

The only expense that I have is the transportation allowance and the the food.. That's all.

So I am actually wondering why I could not save.. Darn it.. Maybe I am not trying too hard. Maybe I am not as spend thrift as I am..

I am close to tears now.. I wanted to justify myself to you.. to let you know that somehow.. someday, maybe I will be the kind of person that you wish me to be..

I know it is for my own good.. I know you just care.. But what hurts me most is that it makes me feel guilty every time you mention the word "save". That it seemed that I am not doing anything.. and all is worthless..

I wanted to see you right now. selfish me to ask you to make sundo even if you are not feeling okay.. But the money issue comes again... and so we argue.. and I'll try to make tiis...

And I feel alone again.

Thursday, November 9, 2006

Bataan Trip


There were so may things that has happened and apparently I got lost track of posting them all here... Now, I'll try to let my mind drift back in time...

October 20-21, 2006 : Saturday - Sunday

Team Blar outing in Mommy Crissy's hometown - Bataan. This was supposed to be a 4-hour drive and yet due to the stop-overs and the last minute food shopping because we are going in a not-so rural place, it ended up 6hrs. We were 24 all in all, including 5 kids.. Stayed overnight at 2 houses... Went to West Nuk beach during the Saturday afternoon. A beach resort exclusively for the power plant employees.. Water was not that clear like where they have went during the last Bataan trip, but talking about Nature.. it is beautiful.


And since I am allergic to liquor, I excused myself by just eating chicken wings while the rest of the gang were singing songs -- videoke. I would not be forgetting Mommy Amy's act, Chilay's Backstreet Boys dance, the ghost stories on the ride back to the house we were staying , laughter and fun we had.



Sunday morning, we tried to get up early to go to swim at the waterfalls. It may be scary to go down... Trying to watch the steps as you move from one stable foundation to another... But it was so darn worth it! We went home by past 3 already..

On the way home, we even though Mommy Amy's truck was jammed.. Although we were able to go home safe, exhausted and exhilarated.

And by Monday, we were all craving to go back.. wishing that we should have extended it..